*Possible Pregnancy TMI Alert.*
This should have been a post for yesterday, but I was just too tired and too much had happened. I am writing this post from The Ohio State University Hospital. Yesterday I went for a routine ultrasound and check-up, only to find that my cervix was way too short. 10-13mm. Not good. So Dr. Melillo sent me over to my High Risk Dr. at OSU to have a consult. They did another ultrasound and got only slightly better measurements. 16-18mm. The Dr. there ordered a cerclage, or stitch in my cervix.
So they sent me over to OSU Hospital. I got admitted and after a fairly decent night of hospital sleep, I am waiting to find out when I will have the procedure. It will be some time today, but I'm not exactly sure when. Meanwhile, no food or drink for me. Torture for a pregnant lady. :) Thankfully, I expect to be back home by tomorrow or the next day. This doesn't seem to be a long term hospital stay. That will be coming shortly though.
But I am feeling much better and more hopeful this morning. I am only 20 weeks, so to have these babies any time soon would mean loosing them. Give it a few more weeks and we are talking severe brain damage and disabilities. The goal is to make it to 32 weeks, and I'm feeling confident that we can do that...or more.
Our family is no stranger to these situations. That's just how pregnancy is for us. Go big or go home! However, Charlie and Liv add something new to the mix this time around. It was heartbreaking to pack a bag and leave them, not knowing if I was going to be coming home soon. I tried to explain things to them in a way they would understand, but Livy was crying and Charlie stood at the door and watched as Mom and I pulled out of the driveway. To be a mother and feel like you are choosing between your children is a difficult position to be in. Of course, the babies need me more right now. We have to get them into this world. But I just love my Charlie and Liv so very much. I miss them. Even if a lot of our time together is spent trying to get them to stop jumping on my bed. :)
For now, I'm just loving them from my hospital bed and envisioning life with these guys...
With different names, of course. :)
Picture via my friend Abbey on Pinterest.