I haven't wanted to write this blog entry. For one, I need to be focused on these babies and making it to Friday. But we also don't have a lot of information yet, so what exactly do I blog about? Despite those things, though, I need to get it out.
My Dad is back in the hospital(OSU James Cancer Hospital). After being declared cancer free in September, they have found more cancer cells in the fluid that keeps filling his lungs. And though they are trying to do the tests necessary to accurately diagnose and treat him, they keep getting sidetracked by other things that need to be taken care of. Like helping him breath. The procedure they used to drain his lungs apparently left him in some pain so that it hurts to draw a deep breath. He is now in the ICU for pain managment (hopefully they will not run out of meds this time!), and they will probably intubate him. Back to square one, it seems. Until they get this under control, there isn't a whole lot they can do. Thankfully they were able to get a pet scan in before moving him to the ICU, so those results will be helpful when they finally get them.
All of the doctors and nurses know that Olivia and Charlie and going to be born on Friday, and they are trying to get all the necessary testing done in time so that Dad can be here at MY hospital for their arrival. But I'm starting to worry that this won't happen. Not if he continues on the path that he is currently on. That, of course, is the least of my worries. And yes, I do worry, even though Laura tells me it isn't time yet. She'll let me know when it is. :)I hope that time doesn't come. Again.
Until I get out of here, there isn't much I can do. Except pray. And that might be the most important thing I can do. But it still hurts.