First of all, there has been a new development. It has nothing to do with the babies though. I am now officially allowed to shower EVERY DAY!! WOO HOO!! This makes such a difference in how I feel. Thank goodness. It really is the small things.
Also, every Monday at 1:00 I go to a High-Risk Support Group. I was hesitant at first, as I don't feel super depressed or upset. I seem to be taking things fairly well, and I am blessed to have support from family and friends. But I decided to go so I could get out of my room and interact with people for an hour each week. Wow. I do not fit in. Apparently this group is not for people who don't have husbands who leave them because they're pregnant, or fiancees who are no longer fiancees because they refuse to visit the mother of their child in the hospital. I am not giving either of my children up for adoption, and my boyfriend did not try to get me pregnant by hiding my birth control. I do miss my dog, however, but when I say that out loud it just doesn't seem as significant. Anyway, this group has definitely shed new light on my life. Certainly, it is not news to me that I have a good life with a loving and supportive husband, and a stable relationship. But clearly it could be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much worse. My heart goes out to these girls. It's bad enough to be stuck in the hospital for who-knows-how-long and have the kind of support that I do. Trying to deal with all of these emotional issue right along with it must be close to unbearable. Thankfully, though, my appreciation for Eli and our life together (and especially the Gospel) has increased by attending these meetings. So I will be there next week.
Alright...soap box time.
As I have had a lot of time to read while I'm here, I held a mini magazine-a-thon the other day. I read through almost all of my magazines that deal with parenting and children. However, I did not get to finish my "Parenting" mag. So I was just looking through the remainder of it and thought I would read the article about vaccinations. Now, I am not trying to offend anyone who might not agree with me on this, but I feel so strongly about some of what I read that I have to say it...bluntly. And I do so as a child care provider as well as a parent.
I certainly understand why some parents are hesitant to vaccinate their children. Rumors that they can cause autism or are risky for other reasons are scary to parents. And if you choose not to vaccinate your child, that is your choice. (Not one I necessarily agree with, but it's your choice nonetheless.) HOWEVER! Choosing not to vaccinate your child and then deliberately exposing them to uncomfortable and dangerous diseases like chicken pox is NOT okay. In fact, it is abusive.
Apparently some parents choose to expose their children to a disease in order to build up the child's immunity without having to get the shots. They even have "parties" for other parents who are interested so all of the children can share the illness. Mouthing the same items, hugs and kisses are all encouraged between the infected and the well. I was so outraged when I read this that I can hardly contain myself. It is illegal to physically and emotionally abuse our children. It is illegal for mothers with munchausens by proxy to poison their children just enough to get them sick. Why then is this okay? The distinction between them is so infintesimal in regards to outcome for the child. And for the parents who have tried this and say that when their child got chicken pox they didn't even itch that badly, I say...then your kid got lucky! I've had chicken pox. I was little! BUT I REMEMBER THE UNBEARABLE ITCHING! There is no way this is the best choice (and I don't think it should be a choice) for protecting your child's health.
Stepping down now.