*Possible Pregnancy TMI Alert.*
This should have been a post for yesterday, but I was just too tired and too much had happened. I am writing this post from The Ohio State University Hospital. Yesterday I went for a routine ultrasound and check-up, only to find that my cervix was way too short. 10-13mm. Not good. So Dr. Melillo sent me over to my High Risk Dr. at OSU to have a consult. They did another ultrasound and got only slightly better measurements. 16-18mm. The Dr. there ordered a cerclage, or stitch in my cervix.
So they sent me over to OSU Hospital. I got admitted and after a fairly decent night of hospital sleep, I am waiting to find out when I will have the procedure. It will be some time today, but I'm not exactly sure when. Meanwhile, no food or drink for me. Torture for a pregnant lady. :) Thankfully, I expect to be back home by tomorrow or the next day. This doesn't seem to be a long term hospital stay. That will be coming shortly though.
But I am feeling much better and more hopeful this morning. I am only 20 weeks, so to have these babies any time soon would mean loosing them. Give it a few more weeks and we are talking severe brain damage and disabilities. The goal is to make it to 32 weeks, and I'm feeling confident that we can do that...or more.
Our family is no stranger to these situations. That's just how pregnancy is for us. Go big or go home! However, Charlie and Liv add something new to the mix this time around. It was heartbreaking to pack a bag and leave them, not knowing if I was going to be coming home soon. I tried to explain things to them in a way they would understand, but Livy was crying and Charlie stood at the door and watched as Mom and I pulled out of the driveway. To be a mother and feel like you are choosing between your children is a difficult position to be in. Of course, the babies need me more right now. We have to get them into this world. But I just love my Charlie and Liv so very much. I miss them. Even if a lot of our time together is spent trying to get them to stop jumping on my bed. :)
For now, I'm just loving them from my hospital bed and envisioning life with these guys...
8 comments:
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Hang in there, Ab. I'm glad you're feeling like everything will be okay! :)
Hope you get home soon!! I believe that ultimately,the cerclage is a good thing. I never had to have one but Ashley did (at 20 weeks too!) and she ended up going full term with her twins. Charlie and Liv will be great- and they are so young they will have zero memories of this and will be happy and healthy. :)
Oh Abby. I just can't imagine being in your situation. You're right, your babies need you more right now and your the twins will survive you telling them 1000x to stop jumping on your bed...though it still must be hard to do. Prayers and support to you!
I'm sure Jake feels the same way, but its Autumn, not Jake. :)
I am so glad you are doing okay! Sorry you are stuck in the hospital, though. Those babies are lucky to have that warm environment and I am happy they are good too! I hope to come see you at HOME next week!!
i love you, abbykins. and to prove it, i am having a glass of wine in your honor. and if one glass doesn't prove it to you, i'll have another. and another, if necessary. whatever it takes. :)
Abby, everything is working out beautifully. The kids are a blast and I'm having more fun than they are. It appears that your little family is doing everything that's in their power to do. You're resting, we're all praying, and really, those are all the tools we have. Everything else is up to the Lord, and that's the way it should be, right? "important things first".
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